wow, i just realized how emtional i can be. just by listening to this song, i'll start to think of lots of things. of the happy times. the things we did together and the places we went to together. all because of one song.
i try o stop myself from thinking of such things. to indulge myself in things i love alot. like bowling for example. and it actually works. i stop thinkig of him and all the things we did. i stop lamenting that we've come to an end and i stop holding on. but this only happens for that moment in time. when night falls and everyone's in bed, when the surroundings are all quiet and lonely, ur mind will start to wonder. and i'll start the process all over again.'
sometimes i wonder to myself what would become of us if it didnt end. how we would turn out to be now. i know its useless and pointless and useless, as that's not gonna happen again. but can we really reign our emotions in as and when we like? i for that matter can't.
this song and mood gets me into one of my very reclusive moods. when i just feel like holing up in one corner and draw or compose poems. or something. i'm not feeling anything now. no pain. no hurt. no sadness and resentment. just a peaceful serenity. the perfect mood for me now i guess. haven't been feeling like these for a long while.
