Saturday, March 12, 2005
heh.. today's my birthday.. kinda surprised and happy that quite a number of unexpected people remembered it.. but i dun think He remembered.. dunno what i should be feeling now. i feel that recently we've been drifting apart? or rather he's been drifting away from me. just as a friend. i mean. i know we cant be together as a couple. but we cant even be firends? or are u just bz with ur life now? just tell me and i'll keep my distance.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Waiting for you
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
this is for him. i hope you know who you are.
what if one day i say i still love you.
what will u do?
what if one day i tell you you're like honey,
and i'm like the bee?
what will you do if i tell you i can't forget you,
that you're like the moon to me?
that you were there when i'm all alone,
and when the sky's dark from the abscence of the stars?
the full moon has come and gone.
all that's left are the stars.
but the night sky will never be picturesque
without the moon in the sky.
now you're like the horizon when the sun is setting,
beautiful.
it seems as if you're just within my grasp.
but whenever i take a step forward, you seem to move back.
i'll just have to wait for the next sunset,
waiting for you to appear in my life again.
just waiting and watching. not doing anything,
for i know i can never have the horizon in my hands.
i love you.
Sunday, March 06, 2005
wo ye hen xiang ta. wo xiang wang ji ta. dan wo zuo de dao ma?
this song means alot to me. i think i haven told anyone why yet. but it just means so much to me and i think its gonna be my blog song for a long time to come.
i've tried forgetting him. believe me, i've tried. but it just that i look forwrad to talking to him and stuff. its like all my efforts(if u can call them eforts) are gone. hearing that he was going to cine to watch movie today with some guy. i just felt terible. jealous i can say. i just felt horrible. and this huge wave of sadness overcame me. we've broken up. and i have no idea if he's in the same dilemma as me. he seems happy. and i'm happy that he is happy. but somewhere deep down in my heart. i wish we were BOTH happy together. why do i always fall for guys and not get my feelings reciprocated?
u helped me get out of the darkness i was in. than after a short while. u left me again. u taught me how to fly. than u let me fall back to the earth. but i dun blame u. i do love u alot. no mattet how much i deceive myself. i just cant help it. love's not a feeling that u can order about. it just happens like that.
zh.. wo ye hen xiang ni..
